at what point does it become an addiction as opposed to a small source of pleasure? becuase i think i'm an addict at this point i feel so hollow and i can't imagine life without you im a fucking degenerate but at least i know i am i guess i want to believe you when you say i don't need you i can't sleep i can't think my life would end without you i'm so close i need this nothing else even matters my laptop screen goes black i hate what's staring back

you'll never know me no matter how hard you try you'll never see me even if you ask nice i'm staring at you and you're staring right back you couldn't see me i bet you really liked that i was drowning floating to the surface you've got crazy eyes and they make me nervous you said you wanna see my body in the river i was talking to your brother, he was callin' u a sinner i can't get to you even if i wanted to (x4) i can't get to you but i really want to you're gonna kill me and then im gonna haunt u im in ur walls and im crawlin' in ur body but they cant tell the difference 'cause ur work is kinda shotty...

baby ima dirtbag im so fucking useless maybe u cant stand me but im so fuckin clueless lookin in the mirror i feel so disgusting i wanna let it go but you're holding onto something im gonna fuck up my life just because i can! im gonna drink all night because i cant stand having thoughts right now and i wanna drown em out so fuck me up and turn the music louder oh my god oh my god oh my god im fucking up again god oh my god oh my god im fucking up again

i dont know how to be happy so ill waste my time i stayed in bed all day today and i lost my mind self conflict pity party overthinking decline just shut the fuck up im gonna be fine i cant think straight and i havent for days! i cant remember who built this place! my body is cold!!! i want to be warm. and i long for myself!!! i wish that i was reborn!!!!! im gonna be fine gonna be fine be fien b eifien goenna be infine ibme gonnea be fiaeni aejimbreab

part 1: feel me are you on the run from me? cause you can't find where i'm supposed to be did i touch your soul last night? or was i embarrassing did i scare you away? across from you but strange so exposed to you it didn't matter anyways part 2: feel weird i feel like its special i feel like ur different i feel like we'll make it i feel like we won't i feel like i'm useless i feel like i'm ugly i feel like you hate me i feel like throwing up sometimes i don't wanna feel at all there's some times where my feelings shouldn't get involved I FEEL LIKE I FEEL LIKE I FEEL LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHH part 3: feel you i always felt like throwing up when you told me you cared for me at all in the corner of your room a light remains unresolved it says to you: "grab my shoulders and tell me that i'm alright" ever conflicting and barely dissmissing every moment that you're alive i can't make up my mind i couldn't stop myself from crying no matter how hard i tried moments like these, tiny irises capture for all our lives i was in the backseat counting my blessings and it just wouldn't add up i miss my innocence and the moon and the people i used to love part 4: feel fuck I JUST WANT YOU TO FUCKING HATE ME I JUST WANT YOU TO HATE FUCK ME CALL ME ONCE AND THEN REPLACE ME WITH WHATS-HIS-NAME IN THE STUPID FUCKING JACKET AHHHHHHHHHHH

why is it so damn hot in here i mean the ghostzone has an ac but we don’t i think we should steal it i think that’s a pretty good idea we should just take their ac they don’t need it it’s so hot here and it’s so cold there yeah, they don’t need it why is it sO DAMN HOTTTTT he summons demons he’s stuck with those two and then the lach the prince of ghostzone he gets this really funny cute guy to take it back, let’s see if he can try they’re gonna beat up moya the satanist the lach calls the demon princess the lach is evil and he wants to melt home the ghostzone guard is friends with death now badplace want that ac from the ghost zone king’s fucking crazy and if u want yr shit back u better go through him and if u want yr shit back u better go through him it came to kill them so they all screamed and ran moya doesn’t get why he’s gonna die the ghostzone guard is walking walking with death now why the hell is death is involved now it’s not like he can do much anyways he kinda stupid yet so is the little bear moya’s here at the library his teacher’s there at the library badplace want that ac from the ghost zone king’s fucking crazy and if u want yr shit back u better go through him and if u want yr shit back u better go through him moya, look, forget about me, and the school, or yr parents, or whatever uh “this” is about yr literally wearing horns in public i don't know what u are trying to look like but u look like a jackass a jackass looking for trouble u aren’t stupid moya, i know u are here on this computer to get in trouble but i'm not going to give u detention. all u need is to hear this there has never been a single teenager who didn’t make the absolute worst choice possible in every single moment everything u are doing is wrong, and in a few years just thinking about it will make u want to kill yrself now get the hell out of this library and set yr brain on fire badplace want that ac from the ghost zone king’s fucking crazy and if u want yr shit back u better go through him and if u want yr shit back u better go through him

ill get to u ill stick like glue u want me to oh yes u do i cant see straight when i look both ways run me over to start the day i watch u sit i see u stare it wasnt me dont give me that glare u stop to watch the little game u freak me out its not the same u freak me out its not the same yeah we still play that little game u freak me out its all the same

my clothes are shredded from last night im feeling sick i think i might throw up you tell me to get on my knees id do anything to please you so pack your bags (lets go for a drive) head out for a while (dont forget your shirt) i guess you make make me hurt (just like i told you to) so come on and do what i want you to now i dont know where i am i woke up half naked kiss me by the shoreline nothing left in your eyes

oh why can't you see me? (why cant you see) am i no good to you, oh baby? (oh baby please) but i guess its ok (i guess its ok) cause you dont come around anyways (you dont come around anymore, anymore) baby just tell me if you're ok im sorry for coming around you feel just like dying and im trying but i just cant figure you out oh my god invisible invisible oh why cant you love me? (why cant you love) you just love to rip me apart and i just can't stand it (i just can't stand) im screamin out oh my god, oh my god baby just tell me if you're ok im sorry for coming around you feel just like dying and im trying but i just cant figure you out oh my god oh my god oh my god

i dont wanna feel alone now i just wanna feel in my skin but it doesnt really matter cause i dont think im gonna ever win i dont wanna fall asleep now cause i know you're still in my dreams but it doesn't really matter if i dont know what they mean like last night you cut my head off and i tried to look around but my head was underwater and my body was underground everything was feeling blurry and i just wanted to go home but it doesnt really matter cause id still be all alone cause im always all alone i dont wanna see ur face again i dont wanna be replaced again i cant stand feeling so cold again i cant stand being alone again (x2)